The ramblings..
...written on 2004-10-03, @ 10:09 p.m.
Another boring day. Sometimes I feel like I am just wandering through each day rather than living it. I really don't know why I'm here. I don't want to do the homework - except for the reading - I don't want to get involved with other people...wait that's not all true, I would love to do things with people but there's that stubborn shy factor about me. I keep repeating my mantra that if I was at a smaller school, I would do much better.
So I found one thing out that I have going for me. Guys find my voice very cute. In the past week I've been told that I sound "angelic" and "adorable" and "amazingly cute" and that my voice "makes me [him] want to hug the phone". lol Very flattering. Tuc ruined the polling! He only said "innocent". I can agree with that...I think I sound like a little kid, not a 20 year old. However I have my special 'phone voice' for when I answer the phone at work and I try to sound all professional.
I need to move somewhere where I can be able to go to all these cool parties and actually hang out with my friends. Except that I know that ravers can never be true friends. They just want life to be a party, and they don't stay close. At least that's my experience with most people in the scene. It's kinda depressing really. I miss having a friend whom I could always call and vent or cry or just talk and love.