Falling...please don't let me get hurt
...written on 2004-10-26, @ 1:25 a.m.
So there's this feeling that I haven't felt in a really really really long time. I'm officialy head-over-heels in like with someone. Not love of course. I don't believe in love at first site or first talk or first whatever. Love is something that has to grow and develop over time. But you can definitely like someone at first site (of course that would be lust and only based on looks) and you can like someone after talking to them.
I told myself I would never ever open my heart up at all to people that I haven't met yet in real life. I meant to stick to that too. I'm not a sucker for sweet talking...I mean Dallas tried his best to be a flirt and I didn't fall for him in the least bit.
But now.....*sigh* His name is Paul. So sweet. He's so funny. Makes me have this huge silly grin on my face. And he is soooooo cute and hot and sexsie and adorable and I want him. Badly.
Bad me. I can't like boys that are so far away. They just break my heart. But I love this feeling. I like having fun. And he talks about pound puppies with me!! Seriously how many guys will do that...if I talk too much about pound puppies with Phil he's about ready to smack me. lol
I could go see Paul. I want to go see him. But then there is the part of me that is scared that he might not like me in real life or think I'm ugly and fat and stuff.
I should have been in bed at like 9pm...I was sooo tired then. But now I am wide awake...I think I will have happy dreams tonight.