Cutting the ties
...written on 2004-10-15, @ 7:17 p.m.
didn't take my meds today. Or yesterday for that matter. And I figured I'd be fine because yesterday I was fine and still all giggley and happy me. Tonight, not so fine.
I was talking to Phil forever....and it was a pretty good conversation and then all of a sudden I read something and I just get this horrible feeling in my heart and that's it, I'm upset. Maybe I shouldn't even be upset. Maybe it's stupid. But what I read I didn't like to see and yeah it did hurt. So I got off the phone really quickly with him and I blocked Dallas online.
I guess I will go through with what I said I was going to do. No making friends with people online. I'll still be on kt, I'll still post, I may still have random online conversation with people, but I will not try to make a friendship with anyone. No more talking on the phone. No more speaking to every day.
And now I will go take those meds and hopefully something will make me happier, cuz I cannot stand the mood swings.