There are a lot of if onlys in the world
...written on 2004-10-07, @ 11:38 p.m.
I am hurting like crazy right now and I don't know why and I don't know how to make it go away. I just want to cry and cry and then somehow everything will be better. But I can't cry. And nothing will be better. I feel so helpless right now. All I want to do is go home. And I will tomorrow. But that won't make anything better. I predict that it will make things a lot worse.
If only if only if only. If only I had tried to get into Ed House my freshman year. Then I would have had lots of friends here. Then I would have done better in school. Then I wouldn't be 50,000 in debt. Then I would be happy.
If only I wasn't so broken.