jumbled up
...written on 2004-12-11, @ 6:23 p.m.
Everyone (meaning Jenn) remarks on how calm I am in regard to that certain boy who I will not name in case he reads this, but if he does read this, then he already knows who he is. I'm still sorta in a way hurt over his non-communication. When we talked about it, he said the only reason he talked to me so much before the visit was that he was curious about me and wanted to get to know me better. So I'm guessing that since the visit, he either knows everything there is to know about me, or he doesn't care to know more. I'm leaning more towards the second one.
But then there was that goodbye...and what a goodbye it was. He has to care to have that kind of goodbye. Thinking about that makes me feel better. Maybe that is what keeps me calm and grounded. It's not like I'm head-over-heels in love with the guy, I just like him, I want to see him again, I had fun with him, he makes me smile and laugh and happy. I just wish he would call me.
Scott discovered the other day how ticklish I am. This is not a good thing for Scott to know. Especially since his seat is my bed, and my bed is within reach of my desk, and then I'm boxed in the corner. At least he hasn't touched the Count Down to Christmas tree in the past two days!
That is what will be hard to leave. The people who feel like family. It's only Jenn and Scott who I will miss. Everyone else has not had as deep an impression on my life as they have had. I still haven't told anyone yet. My plan was to tell Jenn after the movie and ice cream last night...except it was rainy and gross and we just ran back to the house after the movie, skipping the ice cream because the line was out the door. [Ocean's Twelve is such a great movie! Go see it! Right now! Matt Damon, Brad Pitt, George Clooney...yum..and there's even a Red Sox reference in it - it's my favorite part!!] The strange thing is, it seems like Nico knows that I am leaving. She keeps coming up to me and hugging me at least twice every day and she's never done that before. Maybe Monday...maybe.