it's clearer now
...written on 2004-12-03, @ 9:30 a.m.
Last night Paul and I finally had "the talk". That sounds more horrible than it actually was. But...now that I'm running everything through my head again maybe it wasn't all that great. Where is Phil when I need him to dissect every detail?
I told Paul how I feel and why I needed him to be upfront and spell things out for me. And he did. He thought that I wanted us to be in a relationship right now. Which isn't what I want. Well not right now. I don't want to rule out the possibility of one in the future.
He had fun that weekend. We talked about that. We straightened out feelings...sort of. I think he cares about me, but it is the whole distance thing.
The more I think about it, the more I don't like it. So this entry is going to end right now.